youve got all the friends you need;

all i needed was to know if you ever gave a damn.
why don't you just speak up.
i'll let you rip me to shreds.
just do it so i won't have to regret not being able to fix this.

maybe they're right, i don't know what's going on with you. but what you're showing me is what you want me to see right? that you don't care, and that you're fine. and that you feel no motivation to fix this. EVER.
so how do you expect me to feel. do you expect me to feel. maybe you've forgotten that i'm not just some roadblock and that i'm an actual person. who knows really.
you do. BUT YOU WON'T TELL ME. so. how is this gonna even work, even with all the non-chalance you find so easy to exude.

edit:
it's not enough that you pretend not to care when you do, but it's the front that you put on. what for? you have to ask yourself that. is that gonna make things easier to deal with? i've tried to understand. i've tried to communicate. but you're pushing me away and i don't even know why because your reasons keep changing. and i, being totally unable to let go as i am, am still holding on. i know you want me to know you're done, but the things you say when i'm not there. it shows that you're troubled. why can't we just fix this so we're not anymore. EOYs are screaming towards us, and as much as you are unaffected (apparently), it bothers me. why do you need to hide and then crumble. i know i can't change you but honestly.
i'm getting mixed signals from everywhere. is it really the best thing for you to not even bother to maintain a jovial relationship with me? ask yourself that. i know your beliefs are not easily changed. but seriously. you should consider this.
there are periods where you can forget it, but that doesn't make everything ok. it just ships everything to the back of your mind. and when it hits you again, i doubt it'll be better.
so honestly, if any part of the you i knew was real and not a lie, i know you'd consider things properly.
and there's no point pretending you don't care. it doesn't make you any stronger.