youve got all the friends you need;

i know you're sorry, and i wholeheartedly forgive you. it's okay, really. i shouldn't have stormed off the way i did. and though being stressed is not an excuse, it's a reason, and we all have to deal with it. so it's okay, really.

and you have no idea how hard it was to see you cry and know that even if i went over you wouldn't want that. i can't comfort you and as much as i want to, i can't help you. i thought i could just let things go, but i then i realised how much it hurt to see you cry. i bloody care about you and if you can't see that then it's probably because i'm not making it obvious enough or you don't notice.

i've done things i regret, but i've never stopped with my offer to be friends. i bloody want to fix this. i know you're gonna scold me for it being a bad time or whatever, but. today was different. today felt like those days when we used to be friends and we would fight over stupid things, and end up crying with each other and apologising.

i know you might not think it's the same. and yes, it's different. but when we were friends, i stuck around because i felt like it was worth it. like YOU were worth it. no matter how tiring it was, i wanted to be there for you. and i still feel upset when you cry. i don't know where you are right now, and i wish i do, really i do. if i could talk to you, i'd ask how you were, and if you were putting on a front, and if you felt upset and where we are at as friends.

i'll wait. i'll wait until you are ready to talk to me. to get away from this problem of awkwardness or whatever. cause it freaking tears me apart sometimes. i cried. because i was stressed, and because i couldn't do a damn thing. i felt helpless. and you know what.

i ~~fucking~~ miss you.