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i went for saw loser's gig yesterday at fort canning for Glo For Youth with monica, bao, dona and aly (sorry, i can't spell! D:). i sobbed. i'm really really REALLY upset about this.

okay so this is how the day went. i'm not gonna post about boys like girls cos' it seems not as important as saw loser ): sorry. okay. we saw jimmy standing on the second story of the over-looking building. so we went up and he waved at us. yay. he looked red. then we went to talk to him. he looked like he was going to cry when monica asked why they were going on hiatus. then he told us: i never thought anyone would care really. i know it's a bad thing to say but... then he told me not to be so upset. i was gonna cry. gosh. if only he knew how much people cared.

his glance totally cut into my heart. it really hurt and i actually felt physical discomfort. i'm still dying to give him the biggest hug known to man and make it okay. then jimmy, sweet as ever, noticed my "guitar pick pretty please?"sign, so after i turned to look at monica, jimmy was holding out his pick, arm stretched, and he pressed it into the middle of my palm. if only you knew how much it meant to me jimmy.

jimmy's is the lucky 13 one :D ily jimmy. i absolutely do. then, we got a video for the boardies, and jimmy, SWEET AS HECK I'M TELLING YOU, got all the guys to come out for the video for us. then they autographed my picture and masashi wrote my name on it :D you rock, mas.

actually, i was pretty disgusted with sam for the entire gig. he was openly flirting with the girl one girl away from me. she kept screaming his name and he threw 3 picks at her despite my sign. yeah. it's gross. and then when she screamed: WE LOVE YOU SAM, sam said: i already told you, i love you too! but usually the girls like jimmy more, cause that's usually the case. give it up for jimmy. then i screamed: WE LOVE YOU JIMMY! then that stupid girl screamed: I LOVE YOU MORE SAM. gosh. i wanted to stick my fist down her bloody throat. eww. despo much? grr i feel bitchy. then, jimmy looked like he was gonna cry half the time i almost cried while looking at him.

after the gig, we stood near their dressing room for a while. then we saw matty tuppen :D jimmy's nice brother who helped me get my tie signed at holland v last year. he's super nice. me and aly asked for a picture then he turned and asked me: hey, did you get a pick in the end? (i basically melted lol) then i said: no i didn't get masashi's pick ): then he was like: hey i got a pick that i think sam used do you want it? then i told him i did. when he was walking away, he suddenly turned back and said: hey i have masashi's setlist if you want that. obviously, i hurriedly accepted and screamed my thank yous :D we love you JIMMY and MATTY and MASASHI :D

did i mention the atmosphere was tense during the gig and sam was being an arrogant prick on stage? as in, he was okay as a person but i guess i'm angry at him for being okay with SAW LOSER breaking up. i love the tuppen brothers. why can't the cooper brothers be awesome too? ): i cried in front of sam and jimmy, and sam glanced and walked on. i'm damn uspet. i saw jimmy's crying face and that woke me at 5am. it's so hard to say goodbye.

i love you saw loser.

and i will forevermore. you guys rock :D