fobsession.

love.

2010-05-24T23:54:00.002+08:00

rhapsodia giubilante was one of the most amazing nights of my life.
i love the choir with my entire heart and i wish i could keep all of you in my life forever.
you're amazing, you're wonderful, you're fantastic.
i wouldn't have wanted to spend my 3 years in choir with any other people.
i'll be taking the music with me wherever i go.
mrs goh is an incredible teacher, and i can't imagine where my standards would be if she hadn't pushed us so hard.
choir, you have to treasure her with everything in you, as well as the amazing teachers in charge we have been blessed with.
sure, you might get frustrated from time to time, but you'll see the results. it'll all be worth it in the end.
SC choir, you were everything to me. you built my confidence, my skill and spirit from the ground up. i can't imagine life without choir and the caring people that make it up. i could cry, but i guess that wouldn't express my gratitude or reluctance to leave fully.
thank you, thank you, thank you.

won't forget, can't regret, what i did for love.

you can do so much better.

2010-04-04T23:10:00.002+08:00

and how stupid was i to think that you'd be happy by now?
looks like you're never satisfied.
at least someone's starting to give a damn! yay you.
good luck, forget you later :D

the grinch.

2010-03-11T22:08:00.001+08:00

maybe i was born with my heart 2 sizes too big?
i will embrace it.

cause sometimes we feel too much.

silent assassin. POW POW.

2010-03-11T22:00:00.002+08:00

lol. it's been forever!
but there's a couple things that have been on my mind.
drabbles~
1) i like friendships that do not stress me out :D
2) i dislike drama (eg. cliques, politics etc) :(
3) good friends don't force you to bend to their wishes, they love you as they are.
4) sometimes, things get personal. then your claws come out :D
5) i should always go for a 2 hour walk in the park after having hyperventilation inducing stress related breakdowns, the park is pretty and i like the silence.
6) over every hill is a patch of green grass (:
7) i heart PARACHUTE (the band, awesomenessss).
8) i love my juniors, and my choir mates because they don't hesitate love me back (:

throw your cameras in the air.

2010-01-24T02:07:00.002+08:00

i'm beginning to think the less i know of your world, the better.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LIYAN!
ILY (:
party was awesome (:
!yadhtrib yppah (:

i have friends that defy all definitions of awesome :D

can you the sound of hysteria?

2010-01-15T00:35:00.002+08:00

only two word can describe the green day concert which finished like an hour ago.

F*CKING AWESOME.

and i don't mean just f*cking awesome. i mean it was like f*cking awesome to the power of sixty billion and three. yeah.
it was worth falling down in the crowd, it was worth skipping meals, it was worth running like a headless chicken after choir, and it IS worth my red and throbbing swollen feet! f*cking amazing, i cannot empahasize this enough.

green day so generous:
- gave 2 ENCORES, yeah 2 bitches
- free t-shirts to some in the crowd
- let 3 fans go up and share the stage with them
- played for 2 and a half hours

i'd queue for 2 days to go for a concert like that again. geez, i was stenading in the 9th row and i was still so freaking excited. the energy, the songs, the instruments showed great versatility and the impromptu covers showed their for their true musical qualities.

this concert just made my year, i'm pretty damn sure.

it's been a long time.

2010-01-06T22:34:00.002+08:00

SID IS OFFICIALLY FINISHED WITH ORIENTATION :D
my committee in prefects never ceases to amaze me.
we're so bonded now!
i love all my committee members, every single one of them.
you amaze me, you know that.
I'M SO PROUD THAT EVERYTHING WENT SO WELL!
-high fives all around-

i have defied tradition by not posting all my favourite moments of last year! shall do that over the weekend :D

oh and a side note. this is a song i wrote for all the people who are looking for something to hold on to in life. hope you enjoy it (: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vXk9fSglz-k
if you can relate, my mission is accomplised. tell me if you can relate! :D

another note: FRIDAY NIGHT BOYS FTFW (:

gloss.

2009-12-28T21:18:00.003+08:00

observation made today: DARREL CHANG'S HOUSE IS TOO FAR FROM HUMAN LIFE.
took me 1 and a half hours to get there, took me the same time to get back!
but aurora lights is sounding good (:

i have a crapload of homework left, and since i love doing my humanities, i have no humanities left to soften the blow of all the crappy math and science ):

AND I FREAKING NEEDDDDDDDD PEOPLE TO PROMOTE MY YOUTUBE, BUT NO ONE IS PROMOTING );

edit: something inside me is calling, and i feel like i don't want to forget anything about my past. it's like i've fought it for so long but i think i have to admit that it was pretty much unforgettable. it'll always be my first, even when i'm looking back from my last. i always hear the same thing. it's the mistakes we've made that make us who we are, and it's the past that influences the future. i'm making my own future, but now that i look back at the past, it really wasn't that bad. in fact, i'm beginning to think it was worth it to suffer in the end, because it was just that unforgettable when it was good.

for brendon urie's ass' sake D:

2009-12-28T01:01:00.003+08:00

PHYSICS MINDMAPS

ARE THE WORST MINDMAPS

EVER.

-screams-

merry xmas (:

2009-12-25T00:18:00.003+08:00

http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=212559556175#/video/video.php?v=204954488084&ref=mf
OMG OMG THIS TOTALLY MADE MY DAY, WEEK, MONTH.
comments are freaking amazing (:
i know the most recent comment was made on monday but it's still the best christmas present ever! :D
it's 12:27am and it's officially christmas!

MERRY CHRISTMAS to all :D

PROMOTE my youtube channel AND I WILL GIVE YOU CHOCOLATE :D i promise you.

oh yes, and tell me if you want me to post the videos on facebook as well as youtube :D thanks!

:D

2009-12-20T21:43:00.002+08:00

taiwan was awesome, pretty much (: came back on the 14th!
nice and cool, but not very winter-y.
got lots of cakes and such, took 500 pictures for art and fun :D
bumped into rainie yang, got loads of same cute things like a collection of rocks labeled: ROCK CONCERT.
and i've finally cured my blues, for reals manzxz :D
feeling revitalised!

jam session on thursday, went pretty well (:
WE NEED FTP BONDING TIME!

recorded covers with jamin on friday!
he must be the only guy i know that likes plushies, kthx.

BUT...
my winter passing cover on youtube rated 4 stars and it's stupid but i feel really sad D:
tell me it's not that bad! www.youtube.com/catastropheeyes
ily people.

youtube star?

2009-12-05T11:08:00.002+08:00

hello hello!
COVERS OF DAKOTA AND WE ALL ROLL ALONG ARE UP!
and i know this is shameless self-promotion, but do check them out at www.youtube.com/catastropheeyes :D it would mean the world to me, seriously.
and tell me what you want me to sing/murder (:

let yourself dream.

2009-12-02T21:48:00.002+08:00

ever get that feeling when your heart just beats faster and you feel your hands tingling and you just can't think of anything but doing that one thing you feel is just what you've been put on earth to do?
lately it's like whenever i watch a live video of a performance, i'm just itching to do something like that. i want to play in front of random people that i don't know, i want to tell my stories in the form of lyrics. i want to hold my guitar in my hands every day of my life.
i want to play music for a living, seriously.

but i could never make it. i'm not talented enough, i'm not beautiful enough. it's really such a shame.

tacks for snacks.

2009-12-02T21:37:00.002+08:00

happy birthday ZHENG WEI my little cousin :D

oh oh was it god who chokes in these situations?
nope, i'm pretty sure it's me who chokes.

in latest news, i'm getting homework done! :D which is kinda amazingly awesome.
and i love my history team ttm! too bad we're not going out again on thursday ): oh well, we'll meet up soon enough hopefully!

i need song suggestions for covers on youtube! :D tell me what you would like me to sing. or murder. either one. hahaha :D (most likely murder, kthx.)

ryro.

2009-11-27T21:27:00.004+08:00

this is my completed sketch of Ryan Ross :D this is from the ryhawk stage, because i adore the ryhawk to death, seriously. the colours are not as intense as the original picture but i increased the colour contrasts to make it slightly more surreal :D

original picture:

sketch:

zoom zoom zoom.

2009-11-22T22:47:00.001+08:00

oh bought a crap load of stuff yesterday :D
all amazing buys!
i heart quality time with my mum too (:

drop the girl.

2009-11-22T22:36:00.004+08:00

so here's my sketch of brendon since liyan wanted to see it. i seriously don't think it does brendon's awesomeness any justice but i tried my best, SERIOUSLY. like i took 2 to 3 hours on it. i decided to zoom in one the face. it's from this picture ('cause i just really wanted something to do with his lips!) :

p.s: i know it seriously looks like shizz and stuff and he looks chubby cos' of the angle but he seriously looked like that to me D:
p.p.s: SID! SHIRTS ARE IN :D

i love my friends.

2009-11-20T23:40:00.002+08:00

and i thank ann and liyan for making my wednesday-thursday absolutely wonderful :D (even if we did fall asleep at 5:15am)
fingers crossed hoping those embarrassing "hair makeover" photos don't find their way onto facebook(?).

tell me i'm a wreck.

2009-11-20T23:22:00.003+08:00

today was really interesting :D i wasn't really myself today. i think it's either not being able to fall asleep or just being perpetually giggly today but, yeah. here's a series of interesting (okay, maybe not that interesting) events that occurred today!

1) got on the bus this morning to head to choir, guy from JC smiled at me. it was weird, and i totally thought that i had something on my face lol. but i smiled back, strangely enough.
2) went out to go guitar shopping with calista, smiled at the salesman who remembered me from last time. it was weird, because i totally don't do shizz like that!
3) headed to maestro guitar with calista, and talked to the sales guy for about 20 mins. talked about guitars and the weather, which was kinda strange considering i was hiding behind my mum the first time i went to get my guitar there. told him to get well soon and bid him farewell.
4) went for dinner at United Square. ran to look at a skunk soft toy in watson's, and i totally blurted out "Ooooh is this a skunk?" to a random lady beside me and started stroking the toy. this made the lady go "Yeah, it is. Cute right?" Then she smiled at me like i was a five-year-old.

LMAO.

p.s: ENJOY YOUR NEW GUITAR CALISTA :D it was such fun helping you pick a guitar.

picture perfect!

2009-11-18T17:28:00.003+08:00

How can a love hurt this bad?
How could we lose all that we had?
Why do we follow through?
What keeps us hanging on?
We lived like a storm and let it ride
For all of the times we felt alive
But sometimes love just can’t make you stay
When you’re happy the hard way

i have no idea why but this song really gets to me. (Happy The Hard Way by Every Avenue)

i shall review Every Avenue's new album soon. i really love the songs, and Every Avenue just keeps getting better :D

edit: CHECK MY LINKS. i don't hate you frances -.-

but not at all.

2009-11-17T23:06:00.002+08:00

i need distraction!
i should seriously stop reading slash cause it kinda makes me emotional? yeah.
but i've found a lot of inspiration these two days.
a few songs on the way and i've been inspired to write somemore! :D
though i feel like a complete and total slacker! i have to get some work done soon.

i heart sleepovers! tomorrow night with liyan and ann :D i'm kinda excited, but worried i'll be super exhausted.

and huiying's going off tomorrow night for a month D: i'm gonna miss my cousin!
oh well, at least she comes online a lot :D

anyway, I LOVE MY SUPER SUPPORTIVE MUM :D when i finally make it with music, she's gonna be the first on my thank yous (: ily mummy.
it's like. in a sea of people saying: uh... yeah it was okay, (btw, i hate it when people tell me my covers are okay cause it's like my covers suck just not that badly D:) my mum keeps me going!

i heart slash tbh. i think i might just keep reading it haha :D

things left unsaid.

softballs.

2009-11-15T21:51:00.002+08:00

friday going out with hannah, isabel and liyan was fun :D then hanging out with ann and liyan at liyan's house with rock band was awesome! thanks for being super fun!
btw, emily lew and kelly tan are stalkers! (just kidding, no seriously.)

yesterday at apec was kinda a blast, but something that was said really upset me.
but i'm over it! and my sis helped me see things through my teacher's eyes for a second.
thank you to the people who made my day great: eveline, frances, gwen, kirsten, jacquelyn, patricia, ruth, liting, farisha, wei li, steph and all the amazing choristers who are awesome :D
btw, gloria arroyo totally ignored me when i said mabuhay to her! D

my ship went down in a sea of sound.

away from our love.

2009-11-11T01:14:00.002+08:00

just keep your head above, swim.
this song keeps moving me to tears.
i swear i have to hear this song live for myself. i would die to just hear half of it.
AMAZING.

anywhere but here.

2009-11-10T22:35:00.002+08:00

picture perfect doesn't mean much.

chinese 'o's are officially over! i'm stoked for my upcoming youtube covers and perhaps an ftp gig? (smiles, hints?)
i'm excited.

I HEART SMOSH AND SHANE DAWSON TTM :D (but shane still > smosh)

under these colours.

2009-11-08T00:11:00.004+08:00

argh my nose has bled like 7 times in the past two days (not that kind, if you guys were thinking otherwise.) i'm so seeing a doctor tomorrow D: i'm starting to feel light-headed, which is really bad. anyway!

i read this post by Mat Devine from Kill Hannah (featuring William Beckett), and i think Mat's advice is super hilarious, and William's is inspiringly insightful. read it? :D http://fuseblog.typepad.com/kill_hannah/2009/11/raccoon-society-ask-mat-round-13.html

anyway, prefects was pretty fun on friday :D i heart the emo i-sit-in-a-shady-corner gang haha. props to kiran for playing the piano incredibly well (to mask my horrible guitar :X), ily!
also, i saw a true example of attw. ty for the relevant example, you're kinda shameless :X
other than a couple of ~awkward moments, everything went rather well. oh yes. except for one thing. (menacing music being played) SOMEONE TOUCHED MY GUITAR WITHOUT MY PERMISSION :O i'm sure they didn't have bad intentions, but it seriously scared me shitless okay. please don't do it ever again. if you hurt my baby in any way, i will hunt you down. -this i swear-
oh oh (sorry for the horrible irrelevance), BUT MDM WAHIDA TOTALLY MADE MY DAY! she was like: "huijun." all of a sudden. and i was so scared i was gonna be scolded or something, then she told me: "you're really very talented. i hope we'll be hearing from you for prefects' investiture." and i was like. ~squeeeeeeeee :D

it's the ups and downs of life that make it special and in a sense wonderful (:

omegalomaniac.

2009-11-05T19:37:00.004+08:00

it sucks how bands just disband and go on indefinite hiatus just like that.
listening to more fall out boy (still one of my favourite bands! probably my favourite.) and i feel like they really treat their music like a craft. it's like beautiful art (: but they're on indefinite hiatus and it really frustrates me 'cause panic! at the disco split in half this year too :'(
fob never fails to put me in a good mood :D i heart alpha dog so here it is! (so totally gonna buy believers never die. without a single doubt man.)

welcome to the new de javu.

don't stop believing.

2009-11-05T01:46:00.003+08:00

hey 500th post! :D

went to little india for art today, then went to bras basah for art supplies. I HEART THE AEP GIRLS, seriously.

so sorry i fell sick and left prefects' camp early, i really feel horrible for doing so, but i'm happy to know that everyone is probably resting well now. (MEAN CHEM TEACHER BULLIED MY PREFECTS. BOO HER!)

anyway, i just wanted to blog because i honestly learned something today.
earlier today i felt left out and sort of in-apt for a period of time. but then someone reminded me that i mattered. that i could help someone, and make an impact on their lives. so much that when they need help, they immediately come look for me. and it feels amazing.
and then i think back, and i regret being so stupid for wanting to just give up being strong, and just break down. if i can help just one person, then heck, it's worth it.

turn turn!

2009-10-31T22:11:00.002+08:00

PAGES AND PARAGRAPHS MUSIC VIDEO OUT 4 DAYS AGO!
it's like sorta amateurish in video quality but i love the song :D so here it is.
pages and paragraphs by set it off! (: cody carson ftw btw.

NOTHING PERSONAL.

2009-10-31T20:37:00.003+08:00

i love NOTHING PERSONAL by ATL. it's like the album of the year, please. there's some choice lines, like:
- are you having trouble finding sleep at night, or does your lack of conscience tell you everything's alright?
- you walk around with my heart on your sleeve.
- gotta bite that know-it-all tongue.
- you were fake, i was great - nothing personal.
- that's just typical, you're so cynical.
- i make you come just to watch you leave.
- and a tongue like a nightmare that cut like a blade.
i'm suddenly totally inspired! I HEART ATL TTM TQVM. haha.

i'm so scared for GE run tomorrow. 5km! -screams and runs around-
i hope i can keep up with my class man. -fingers crossed!-

next week is gonna be the most stressful week of my life ZOMG. prefects, choir, art, 'o' level chinese prep, extended curriculum. kill me now kthxbai.

rawr.

2009-10-29T22:14:00.002+08:00

i'm kind of amazed how frustrated i am with my school right now :/
i used to think the world of this school.
thank goodness there are great things that happen every now and then to brighten my day :D
i heart the new guitar riff i wrote :D
blah blah blah no one cares.
hahaha. oh well.
oh and sometimes, i realise, when you think people are showing some sense of niceness, they turn around and show you that they are as mean as you imagined they were! but it's different now 'cause you don't really get disappointed anymore. yay.

the wind blows.

2009-10-26T20:26:00.004+08:00

i just keep reminding myself that it could be so much worse than it is right now.
thank you gratitude.

i used to be upset that i had no shoes, until i met a man with no feet.

why oh why.

2009-10-25T21:58:00.003+08:00

i'm sick again D:
stupid cold.
it has made me rather irritable, and considering what's been going on i do think it's actually justified.

i don't like the way i am assumed to be useless unless i prove my ability immediately. in case they haven't noticed, if people like me are not given an opportunity, i go hunting for one.
but i never get one because they make sure people who apparently 'have not proven their worth' don't get the chance to gain experience. then why were we even selected? how can we help if we have nothing to help with?
they always give the same people all the work. this is counter-productive. not only do those people get stressed, no one else gets to better themselves to help the common cause.
just because a person does not show emotion, that does not make them stable. in fact, it is in my opinion that most people who bottle their emotions will in the end explode. so yes, open your eyes, seriously.
i thought we were all equals here, but it seems that some of us are not proving our worth in your eyes. and we all know that is biased bull.

no offence meant, just saying how i feel.
injustice is all around the world, but i honestly expected more from such a mature group of individuals.

where were you?

2009-10-23T23:39:00.002+08:00

never good enough, you don't even think i'm worthy of you talking to me or what. hallucination?
this is the level of communication. (this is the silence.)
do i like this? hell no.
can i do anything? no, unless i want to die of misery.
oh freaking well (:

cheer up linda! you're awesome and you know it don't let other people define you, you'll realise that haters just aren't worth your time :D

everything's such a rush! -stressing out-

if i would've known what i know now,
i would have ran for the hills.

a stranger i know well (but not at all).

2009-10-23T00:49:00.002+08:00

EOY results were pretty okay.
some subjects disappointed me though D: and that's not very nice.
but i'm gonna work harder to do better over the hols so yeah (:

loads of stuff is happening with the choir and the prefectorial board so i'm gonna be really busy all the way till november plus plus! D:
hopefully it'll all be worth it in the end.

closing up, boarded up.
you'll be sorry when i'm gone.

you tore me apart like a hurricane.
with a tongue like a nightmare that cut like a blade.

i'm a walking travesty,
but i'm smiling at everything.

i hope you don't mind.

2009-10-16T23:04:00.004+08:00

huiying and debbie are awesome for coming to ftp's jam with me :D ily guys, thanks so much for comforting me when i got the news, i really appreciate you.

liyan, thanks for like hearing me out today like you always do. ann, steph, tessa, yi rong and cara too, i really thank you guys.

wanqi has been amazing, i thank her so much for being there for me today, it made all the difference in the world. thank you.

ruth lee and ruth smalley, thank you helping and encouraging me, remember that i'm here if you need me. (especially you ruth lee!)

ZOMFGUSH :D

2009-10-16T22:49:00.006+08:00

FANCY THIS PROGRESSION PERFORMANCE AT iSPARK TODAY WAS BOOMZ! :D
i think the biggest success was not the being on stage itself, but it was the bonding we did when we were backstage and after the performance :D it's great to be able to like talk and just chill out and be comfortable with each other, that way we can make better music!

here are some highlights:
- people cheering halfway through catch your wave
- cheering after disenchanted
- laughing and joking about the performances with the guys
- heading to chinatown and back with jamin (who is a penguin!)
-getting crammed into the backseat of darrel's car with the guys
- macs at King Albert Plaza
- BAND BONDING!

so to darrel, jamin, meng and yao yuan:
good job, i'm so super proud of all of you. darrel, you've come so far and i'm so glad that like you're super awesome at guitar now (: jamin, you were so nervous, but you manage to cope with the pressure and sing well (: meng, you're a legend at guitar and even though you felt sick you persisted and that's really admirable (: yao yuan, you're a genius at drums even though you're insane when you play, good luck for eoys, thanks for being there (:

I'M PROUD OF FTP :D

you looked so peaceful, and i'm glad you're in a better place now.
just like the beautiful butterfly.
- dedicated to huan huan jie jie.

speechless.

2009-10-13T23:44:00.003+08:00

just as you're living your life half-heartedly, you receive a phone call.
and that phone call rocks you to the core as it shakes you out of your misguided haze and awakens you to the reality of time.
time stops for no man. it waits for no one.
it's not until you face certain death that you realise the importance of life.
i'm going to fall asleep dreaming of you tonight.

if only you were lonely.

2009-10-13T23:36:00.002+08:00

i realise that without end of years to keep me focused, i'm letting myself slip again. i'm just gonna hve to work harder. (and not end up hiding under the table like an emo again :D)

halogen leadership challenge was pretty fun today :D i thought it's just be super boring but it was pretty interesting and informative! the sec 3 prefects are super straight-faced most of the time though. i'm sure we were all tired, that's why.

anyway! jamming tomorrow, which is always a good thing. well, mostly a good thing. soundcheck on thursday and performance on friday! it's pretty incredible. and i'm really excited. so i have to be practising like crazyyyyyyyyy. so sorry to everyone who wanted to watch, it's only open to hwa chong-ers! D: i'd love for you guys to come and watch if you could. -frowns- i'll be sure to invite you to our next performance! :D

you're just a phone call away,
every day you seem further away.
i know i said some things that hurt,
took me 97 missed calls to finally get over you.

i always put myself in destructive situations.

it's funny because we both know we can deal with this right now but we don't fix/ reason things. i'm just too scared to say anything and you don't give a damn enough to say anything.

these are the fast times.

2009-10-12T22:32:00.002+08:00

I HEART TAI'S LOST IN PACIFIC TIME :D
i've already tabbed days like masquarade and sputter. it is love!
and i'm like addicted to Shane Dawson's videos kthxbai :D
BRENDON URIE IS MY NEW WALLPAPER BOOCHES :D

EOYS ARE OVER!
i'm so relieved, honestly.

went out with liyan, ann and chloe today :D
watched fame, which i expected to be an all-out musical but it felt more like true life on mtv with a couple of songs. idk.
it was actually pretty good :D 3.5 stars!
FINALLY BOUGHT MY AAR ALBUM AFTER LISTENING TO IT FOR FOREVER. i heart every track!
i don't want to wake up early for prefects tomorrow! D:

BAND PERFORMANCE IN 4 DAYS! -excited-

i'm hopelessly hopeful you're just hopeless enough.
'cause we never seemed so far.

i know all you needed was me.

forget about the sunshine when it's gone.

stressed out.

2009-10-11T01:13:00.001+08:00

heartbreak is the best motivation.
- brendon urie

ghost.

2009-10-02T19:54:00.002+08:00

had 4 and a half hours of exams today D:
but i feel absolutely accomplished :D
i braved 3 hours of art! most people in the art elective family finished their paper B so yay :D
esther was ranting to me on the phone about that stupid 'boon' and 'bane' question and i realised i took the wrong word for the wrong thing too! D: oh well, it's okay.
FANCY THIS PROGRESSION HAS GOTTEN PAST THE AUDITIONS AND IS PERFORMING! -cheering please- great job guys, sorry i couldn't be there today.
and i totally feel out of my band right now D: and that's bad. -sigh- oh well, i'm just gonna play and see how it goes :D

are you alone in here? i heard the voice so clearly.

edit: i know something you don't and i don't want to tell you cause it's gonna hurt. (weighing the consequences)

home is where the heart is :)

2009-09-30T22:51:00.002+08:00

oh and.
i freaking love the art elective girls :D
you guys are seriously like family, and you are all awesome.
every single one of you.
every time i walk into the art room it's like: YAY :D
-family hugs-

p.s: trip to europe to hit all the art museums ftfw :D

the walk of shame.

2009-09-30T22:09:00.003+08:00

please don't say a word, it's already burning.

what a horrible time to be reminded of horrible things.
oh well.

Don't sweat it
Forget it
Everything is a-ok
Just let it
Know that it's
All to find another face
I make you come just to watch you leave
You walk around with my heart on your sleeve
Don't sweat it
It's over now
I'm done with hell :D

so.

2009-09-29T19:02:00.002+08:00

maybe you're the only one who can make things okay.

and i think shane dawson is freaking incredible.
you hardly are exposed to people who have gone on a miraculous journey with strength and courage, and purely want to help others.
i thought it was hype from zahrah but it's truly amazing.

set it off.

2009-09-29T01:06:00.004+08:00

the work is piling up and i have no idea what to do.
i'm just gonna press on.

i don't know if you were being heartless, but the cuts sure as hell hurt like a bitch.

btw: SET IT OFF IS AN AWESOME BAND EVERYONE. go listen to 'oh marjorie' and 'pages and paragraphs' :D youtube it.

get a grip, huijun. get a damn grip.

edit: i realised i've gotten to a point where i will very nearly die without my guitar. i've been needing it more than ever, it's really my security blanket. without the songs i've written to vent and illustrate, i'd be an emotional wreck.
so, thank you music. thank you my lovely guitar for helping me perserve my sanity and attempt to face the world. i love you.

temporary; just like you.

2009-09-29T01:03:00.002+08:00

i don't know why i'm falling back into the hole i've been clawing my way out of now.
i won't let myself fall back.
i can't. not now.

please give me strength. i need all the support i can get.

when your fingers start to bleed, you realise you're getting desperate to climb out.

hour glass.

2009-09-26T16:22:00.003+08:00

ruth lee rocks :D
thanks roomie you're freaking awesome.

i want to be there but i know you don't want me to be there.
i'm glad that people are there for you now, because it's my opinion that you're a better person than you make yourself out to be.

i bet you're so sick of hearing it, but you don't really want this now.

i'm so screwed for my art exam! D:

friend.

2009-09-25T23:26:00.002+08:00

thank you, i love you guys.
thank you for being there for me, for supporting me, for caring for me.
i know sometimes i'm unreasonable and i do stupid things, but just know that i don't mean them.
i will do my best to appreciate what you've done.
it's amazing to know that i mean something to someone.
and you guys have helped me see that.

jealousy is human nature, but when you're trying to heal old wounds, it's no excuse. you don't want to fall back in again. no way, no how.

just keep your head above.

you don't really want this right now.

2009-09-22T23:23:00.002+08:00

eoys + falling asleep in chinese = BOO D:

the older i get, the more i notice how foolish people really are. it might be amusing to write a social commentary on them after eoys :D
some people are like Helena in Midsummer Night's Dream lol (: yay for lit! (46 quotes in one essay, you are freaking kidding me right?)

you do, you don't.

ily guys don't worry for me i'll be fine (:

spinning.

2009-09-21T22:07:00.003+08:00

mugging for eoys is officially screwed. totally unmotivated and all this self-improvement stuff isn't helping D: i have to hang tight and keep focused.

on the bright side, i bought The Glass Passenger by Jack's Mannequin today. it's awesome! i love every song. especially Crashing, Spinning, Swim (duh), Hammer and Strings (A Lullaby) and The Resolution :D

even if your voice comes back again,
maybe there'll be no one listening.
even if i find the strength to stand,
it doesn't mean i won't go missing.
and the world will come
crashing.

i'm finding the strength to stand. i'm gonna rebuild everything even after the world comes crashing down on me.

give me time to breathe, and i promise i'll be able to go the distance.

edit: i think william beckett's little girl Genevieve is freaking cute :D

repair the wreckage from the blast.

2009-09-19T19:14:00.003+08:00

you're a stranger i know well, but not at all.

end of year exams in two weeks! oh my goodness. i'm only halfway through studying! but i'll catch up on it, eventually i'm pretty sure :D

SID shirt is gonna printed soon, so i have that to look forward to.

I feel like i'm surpressing some things, yet i know there's no use thinking about them, so i just stop. 'it's not worth it' is my new catchphrase! :D and i never noticed how fun it was to hang out with random people. sometimes you get to know them, but if you don't it was pleasant experience :D i'm gonna keep on pulling through.

you do, you don't.

2009-09-17T21:22:00.004+08:00

after hyperventilation and 2/3 kilograms of weight loss, i've realised something.
if you don't think i'm worth anything, neither are you now.
because friends care about each other, and i can't keep caring about you when you don't care about me.
i've been holding on to who you were. you're not the same. and you never will be.
so thank you, for all you did for me.

time will tell, but i'm pretty sure you're not gonna move.
i pray you do, but i'm not gonna get my hopes up over it.
it took me so long to understand.
i have people who love me and they wouldn't want me be hurting anymore.

isabel, sarah mac, fran and liyan rock my world. thank you (:

edit: i'm not sure if i'm ready to carry this out yet, but i will try.

winter passing~

2009-09-16T23:25:00.004+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZbMyf3hnL0o&feature=related
annabelle by a rocket to the moon is love :D

here's a cover of winter passing i've finally decided to post. worked out the chords last year, but never thought to upload my recording. the audio quality's not that awesome, and i doubt many people will listen to it but, here it is :D my acoustic cover of winter passing by the academy is... which i recorded half an hour ago. (this song means alot to me. sometimes i play it when i feel really alone because it takes me back in time. so try not to be too harsh k :/)

winterpassing.mp3 - huijun

in too deep!

2009-09-16T21:13:00.002+08:00

just when things were looking up you said it wasn't good enough.
cause i'm in too deep and i'm trying to keep up above in my head,
instead of going under.

there's more to life than wondering.
at least i get to release my feelings through writing.
can't be bothered to analyse what people tell me.
forget false hope, i want something real.

i need light in the dark.

2009-09-15T22:08:00.003+08:00

filmed Amanda's media SA2 today :D with LiTing and Farisha.
it was pretty fun and stuff (: though i had to walk out of the classroom like 7 times so she could film it. amanda owes us ice cream! :D

part of me wants you to read my book.
but like i said, when a person's hurting, they never want the person who hurt them to know how bad they're hurting.

i did a lot of growing up today.
that mean person will not bother me anymore :D

just keep your head above.

2009-09-13T22:09:00.006+08:00

Swim (Acoustic) by Jack's Mannequin

i don't think i remember the last time a song has touched me so deeply.

You've gotta swim

Swim for your life

Swim for the music that saves you

When you're not so sure you'll survive

You've gotta swim

And swim when it hurts

The whole world is watching

You haven't come this far to fall of the earth

The currents will pull you

Away from your love

Just keep your head above

I found a tidal wave begging to tear down the dawn

Memories like bullets they fired at me from a gun

A crack in the armor

I swim for brighter days

Despite the absence of sun

Choking on saltwater

I'm not going in

I swim

You've gotta swim

Through nights that won't end

Swim for your families

Your lovers

Your sisters and brothers

And friends

You've gotta swim

Through wars withour cause

Swim for the lost politicians

Who don't see their greed as a flaw

The currents will pull us

Away from our love

Just keep your head above

You've gotta swim

Swim in the dark

There's no shame in drifting

Feel the tide shifting

And wait for the spark

You've gotta swim

Don't let yourself sink

Just find the horizon

I promise you it's not as far as you think

The currents will drag us

Away from our love

Just keep your head above

this gives me hope.

homework D:

2009-09-13T18:35:00.002+08:00

i was reading my old posts today, cause i didn't wanna finish my bits of homework.
i remember when i used to say i missed you.
do you remember that?
did you ever miss me back?

i heart the fray's cover of heartless :D sounds sadder but it's pretty damn good.

i'll miss every minute of you.

2009-09-12T23:59:00.004+08:00

"aww, that's freaking sweet!"
you'd take a bullet for her in a heartbeat, but i'm not sure if she would for you.

i'm seriously gonna miss the sec 4s D: they are like incredible. somehow i just didn't feel like crying today. because i know this is not the end. we'll still all be a part of the beautiful music we've created, and i'll remember you guys, forever and always. -HUGS- and the SC CHOIR legacy will always stay, we will always strive to be up to 'WHOOSH'standard (: you've paved the way and we'll definitely tread upon it :D -hearts ttm-

i dislike the way you're nice to me, not because you care about me but because you think it's the "right" thing to do. maybe you really do care. i'm questioning. but you're making such a great effort to show me you don't. at all. social climbing isn't the most important thing you'll do in your life, you ought to know that.

just look at that clique. do you really wanna be the star of it?

edit: like it or not, i was one of the only people who thought you were worth it. and now i question why i did, with the way you're treating me. but it's really not that bad. it's just FORCED distance.

don't stop believing.

2009-09-12T10:21:00.001+08:00

la la lies? making excuses doesn't help.

jam sess in a couple of hours. hopefully we do something awesome/ productive this time :D
choir farewell! pretty exciting.

all the lonely people where do they all come from?

where were you?

2009-09-10T00:20:00.002+08:00

ruth lee (roomie :D) and siew jia pretty much made my day today.
they are freaking awesome :D

and i swear that you don't have to go.

inside i hope you know i'm dying,
with my heart beside me.
in shattered pieces that may never be replaced.
and if i died right now,
you'd never be the same.
(you'd probably be the same, honestly)

there are more things in life than this. i need more time to get that.

breathing underwater.

2009-09-08T18:49:00.002+08:00

FINISHED MORE A MATH AND CHEM TODAY :D i'm proud of myself.

take me home, i'd rather die than be with you.

i have no idea why this stresses me out so badly. especially now. suddenly i feel like i'm gonna explode in tears soon. but okay. leave it the way it is. you already don't give a damn. what the hell am i trying to achieve feeling the way that i am? but i can't help being reminded of you.

i don't know you anymore. but i wonder if i ever did. you're so happy and comfortable to leave things as the are. this meant more to me than it ever did to you. i wasn't worth anything in your eyes. i wonder why you even bothered to pretend to care when i cried.

i'm never gonna throw the stuff you gave me out. it's encapsulates who you used to be. you're just not the same person you used to be. i don't know if that makes you happy. but i hope it does. happier than being my friend ever made you.

who's to say this is a social scene anyway.

2009-09-07T23:54:00.003+08:00

i don't know when you became so concerned with personal image.
i know it's nice to be friendly, but promoting what people find 'cute' in you is kinda much.
you're really as insecure as everyone else, you're just a brilliant actress.
brava, my dear, brava.

the last thing a person who's hurt wants is for the person who hurt them to know how bad they're hurting.

she's right, i don't like the way you're dealing with things.

start acceleration, take it back to square one.

caught up in her own world; well look who doesn't exist in my world.

you are a sellout but you couldn't even do that right.

champagne for my real friends, real pain for my sham friends.

2009-09-07T23:43:00.004+08:00

thanks to mariann and liyan.
you guys really made my day :D
studied chem and finished most of my a math :D
so proud. -grins-
pixie is freaking cute! -squish-

to W, S and F:
you guys need a good sit-down and talk things out.
there are assumptions being made and they are like underlying currents that could cause further conflict. you guys need to communicate.
each of you need to appreciate each other more and be glad you have friends that care so much for you.
remember that no matter what your friend advises you to do, it's because they care about you and don't want to see you getting hurt or disappointed. you guys need to communicate this to each other more.
furthermore, if you decide not to apologise as you don't mean it or you do just for the sake of apologising when you know you are not in the wrong, you shouldn't apologise at all. apologises don't fix things if you don't mean it, because it will be shown in your actions. you have to decide whether apologising is just gonna make the other friend think they're in the right when they are in fact wearing you out completely.

cheer up all of you! especially F. smile (:

sleeping at 5am is not recommended.

2009-09-06T23:44:00.002+08:00

just finished 40 plus chem questions. Ten Year Series = Total Yucks Seriously.
lol but yay \0/ finally done with metals.
chem remedial tomorrow followed by more intense mugging.
EOYs are just that much more terrifying after your form teacher tells you that your whole class is gonna fail and retain.
yay for her!

then i realised how tired i was. but i'm still not giving up.

why can't i get it right.

stuttering.

2009-09-06T02:23:00.001+08:00

You set me up and that was my mistake
And all I got was permanent heartbreak
Damaged beyond repair
I was, I was much better off
Before I met you
And you're with him
It pisses me off that your A-Okay
And all that I've got is permanent heartbreak

IL THE FRIDAY NIGHT BOYS :D

get down.

2009-09-05T22:14:00.001+08:00

http://www.singingfool.com/Title.aspx?publishedid=391033

all of the above! :D

Stay up and get down,
Sleep's just time spent wasting time
So get down, to get down
Let's make it happen all night :D

to buddy: don't worry i'll try not be so sad! :D give me some time.

topsy turvy.

2009-09-04T21:15:00.003+08:00

the sortings for prefects is way weird.
ann is in SLD now.
mel is in EXTERNAL.
sandy is in SPC.
ruijia's in SPC and not DISCO :O
and you. of course you. once you decided to be devoid of your emotions you got into welfare. who would've thought. 'you're definitely a welfare person.' i hope you find enough love and forgiveness in your heart for everyone but me. all the best! (i mean it.)

preSIDents :D

2009-09-04T21:11:00.002+08:00

first and foremost, i want to thank SID 08/09 for being the most amazing committee i could ever ask for.
it's been a great year, and though we're in different comms now, i'm sure i'll be able to see the SID spirit burning in every one of your eyes.
i love you guys and i'm really gonna miss you all D:

SID FTFW :D

and SID 09/10 looks pretty great :D i can see the spirit in them.

lies we live by.

2009-09-03T23:56:00.002+08:00

i glance up,
and i feel my cheeks burn with rage (or jealousy, goodness knows what honestly).
i feel my hands start to shake,
and my mouth goes dry.

i run my fingers through my hair in the most uninterested way,
but i keep my eyes focused on you.
i feel the blood pound in my ears,
and i bite my lip to stop myself from commenting.

shut up huijun, just shut up,
i'm chanting in my head as i gulp air down.
my fists clench,
and i feel my muscles contract in the most defensive manner.

not worth it, somehow,
as much as i wanted to,
as much as i'd thought about it,
i couldn't open my mouth.

the best i can muster is a squeak of 'hi',
and i can't see myself saying anything else.
maybe it's because i know whatever i say won't make a difference,
i should just leave it.

that's what fills my mind when i see you,
but alone i feel pangs of angst and somewhat, regret.
but i bite my tongue.
i don't want to hurt anymore than i already do.

i'm not sure if this will make things worse,
or fix them for good.
graduation in sec 4 is seriously not the solution,
it just isn't.

i'm just indulging myself in my melancholy. this wasted time on you has left me shaking away for something more.

chelsea.

2009-09-03T23:31:00.004+08:00

i don't know where i am right now.
i need to regain the energy to pull myself out of this soon, because i'm seriously slipping in again.
i've been crying so hard i can't feel my hands.
i'm almost relieved to be numb sometimes.

i feel so unbonded with my comm. don't cry, seriously.
i know you won't cry when i leave and you won't miss me at all.
but there's really no point crying over the other seniors (those that really do matter) because we'll still be in the board right! and they won't want you to be sad! :D
you guys can not like me, and not appreciate me, but i just don't want you guys to cry and get hurt over such small things.
cheer up!

i heart chelsea by the summer set :D

edit: I WON'T WORRY MY LIFE AWAY!~
and yes, i think about you sometimes (maybe, a lot). i'm supposed to be so done. yet, i'm so not. are you just busy? or actually busy.

everything i knew, just went out the window
no i can't depend on you forever
and i never thought i'd see my life walk away from me;
i shouldn't have to pay for every word i say
(everything i knew by busted)

i'll heed your advice.

2009-09-03T20:52:00.001+08:00

two steps forward, three steps back.
but with an absolutely positive attitude :D

just break it.

2009-09-02T21:42:00.004+08:00

all i needed was to know if you ever gave a damn.
why don't you just speak up.
i'll let you rip me to shreds.
just do it so i won't have to regret not being able to fix this.

maybe they're right, i don't know what's going on with you. but what you're showing me is what you want me to see right? that you don't care, and that you're fine. and that you feel no motivation to fix this. EVER.
so how do you expect me to feel. do you expect me to feel. maybe you've forgotten that i'm not just some roadblock and that i'm an actual person. who knows really.
you do. BUT YOU WON'T TELL ME. so. how is this gonna even work, even with all the non-chalance you find so easy to exude.

edit:
it's not enough that you pretend not to care when you do, but it's the front that you put on. what for? you have to ask yourself that. is that gonna make things easier to deal with? i've tried to understand. i've tried to communicate. but you're pushing me away and i don't even know why because your reasons keep changing. and i, being totally unable to let go as i am, am still holding on. i know you want me to know you're done, but the things you say when i'm not there. it shows that you're troubled. why can't we just fix this so we're not anymore. EOYs are screaming towards us, and as much as you are unaffected (apparently), it bothers me. why do you need to hide and then crumble. i know i can't change you but honestly.
i'm getting mixed signals from everywhere. is it really the best thing for you to not even bother to maintain a jovial relationship with me? ask yourself that. i know your beliefs are not easily changed. but seriously. you should consider this.
there are periods where you can forget it, but that doesn't make everything ok. it just ships everything to the back of your mind. and when it hits you again, i doubt it'll be better.
so honestly, if any part of the you i knew was real and not a lie, i know you'd consider things properly.
and there's no point pretending you don't care. it doesn't make you any stronger.

LOL. LMFAO.

2009-09-02T18:43:00.004+08:00

hahaha. i'm just gonna laugh because it's so stupid.
oh, so you came up with another reason.
you can keep blaming me for not changing. but wait a minute, DID YOU EVER TELL ME WHAT THE PROBLEM WAS?
do you honestly believe that you have no self control, and i have no self control. you can decide you know. i'm not forcing you into anything.
honestly, things are all black and white to you. and who was it who told me that i was too extreme and that things don't have to always be an ultimatum?
hell, do you really think i haven't changed? i've learnt so much from the shit i've been through.
and you know what, you don't even care. because you're tired, and you can't see things that YOU DON'T WANT TO SEE. i'm sorry, but this source is so obviously one-sided.
you have so many reasons to reject my attempts at peace. PICK ONE WHY DON'T YOU. you keep changing them. why.

tell it to my face. and don't expect things to be any different without you saying anything. honestly, i'd talk to you if you'd attempt to listen.
ly and chlo are right. just that you can't see it when you're so blinded by your own notions. wake up.

edit: don't lecture me about the people you've hurt. BEEN THERE, DONE THAT.

AEP AEP AEP :D

2009-09-02T18:40:00.004+08:00

ART ELECTIVE IS

THE FREAKING LOVE!

you guys are so amazing. mannequins are done and all the crap we've been through has finally paid off and it's phenomenal :D ily guys, for caring and being there for me (especially sarah, thea and darelle :D). AEP is awesome.

you lost me.

2009-09-01T16:33:00.000+08:00

can't you see my room from there?
burning, burning.

love drunk; now i'm hung over.

2009-09-01T00:55:00.003+08:00

cast away the notion of love, because saying that you love someone forever is impossible.

you love who they are currently, but people change, and sometimes you change with them.
sometimes you just drift apart, and you find yourself unable to love them.
love is now, and must constantly be reinvented.

i wonder how friendships and relationships work out.

slash is the ultimate guide to life :D

accusations; i won't run.

2009-08-31T23:50:00.001+08:00

i don't need you to be sorry.
i'm past expecting any apologies cause i know you're not sorry and you never will be.
you've been clear enough.
but all i'm asking is for you to treat me like a normal human being.

i'm gonna break down these walls.

wow.

2009-08-31T20:02:00.005+08:00

i swear. i'm gotta bite my tongue until it breaks or bleeds.
jeez.

thanks.
thanks for letting me know that. it's pretty much unfixable.
and heck, i thought it might just have worked out somehow.

if it's so hard to breathe,
why don't i just stop.
i've lost so much of me,
i can hardly recognise myself.

you're better off, i get it. life's much brighter without me getting in the way or clouding your own ideals of a great life. but things don't have to be the way they were. it'll just be better if they aren't the way they are.
idk. you're not feeling the same way, okay. what are you feeling.

edit: i wasn't worth the trouble. now i know where i stood in your eyes.

walls.

2009-08-31T19:53:00.001+08:00

can we just pretend like nothing happened.

are you cold or are you just afraid to tell me how you feel. my heart on my sleeve is obviously not enough.

love.

2009-08-31T19:51:00.002+08:00

to all prefects, seasons to remember item members and sec 3 choir,

GREAT JOB :D

prefects were enthu, seasons to remember crew was super duper fun. sec 3 choir did quite a good job despite the time constraints :D pat yourselves on the back everyone.

reminisce.

2009-08-30T23:24:00.003+08:00

bits of you will stay with me.
maybe forever.

losing who you were,
have you found yourself again?
who is to say we're who we are,
who defines me?
which people perceive you to be real,
who are those who know the truth?
can you define yourself?
or are you someone else.
are you who you want to be,
or just what you're meant to be?

do you feel because it's right,
or do you feel because you do?
are you able to stay true to yourself?
or do you let circumstances define you.
should you laugh when you're happy?
or laugh when it's appropriate.
do you lock yourself up inside,
because you won't give the person knocking on your door a chance?

maybe when you look outside,
you'll find yourself.
or who you used to be.
or the people you left fragments of yourself in.
but you never think like that,
because there are too many people,
too many to even begin to count.

then you realise.
you really do count for something.

i'm suddenly inspired. tqvm.

things have changed for me.

2009-08-28T20:59:00.002+08:00

i just want to walk over and give you a hug. and i'll mean it i swear.
and to just say: hey i'm sorry, friends? i know it's impossible but it is POSSIBLE to work things out.

btw jsuk, ruth, siew yun and marie ann are awesome. and i thank them very much.

but i don't want to.

2009-08-28T20:11:00.000+08:00

i can move on and i'm almost done, but if i can fix this, i don't want to have to.

i'm sorry.

2009-08-28T19:58:00.005+08:00

i know you're sorry, and i wholeheartedly forgive you. it's okay, really. i shouldn't have stormed off the way i did. and though being stressed is not an excuse, it's a reason, and we all have to deal with it. so it's okay, really.

and you have no idea how hard it was to see you cry and know that even if i went over you wouldn't want that. i can't comfort you and as much as i want to, i can't help you. i thought i could just let things go, but i then i realised how much it hurt to see you cry. i bloody care about you and if you can't see that then it's probably because i'm not making it obvious enough or you don't notice.

i've done things i regret, but i've never stopped with my offer to be friends. i bloody want to fix this. i know you're gonna scold me for it being a bad time or whatever, but. today was different. today felt like those days when we used to be friends and we would fight over stupid things, and end up crying with each other and apologising.

i know you might not think it's the same. and yes, it's different. but when we were friends, i stuck around because i felt like it was worth it. like YOU were worth it. no matter how tiring it was, i wanted to be there for you. and i still feel upset when you cry. i don't know where you are right now, and i wish i do, really i do. if i could talk to you, i'd ask how you were, and if you were putting on a front, and if you felt upset and where we are at as friends.

i'll wait. i'll wait until you are ready to talk to me. to get away from this problem of awkwardness or whatever. cause it freaking tears me apart sometimes. i cried. because i was stressed, and because i couldn't do a damn thing. i felt helpless. and you know what.

i ~~fucking~~ miss you.

done.

2009-08-26T21:59:00.003+08:00

my reasons haven't changed.
but yours seem to have. maybe it's because there was no reason all along.
but i'm kinda done wondering.
justify what you will, but i expected more from someone as secure as you.

everyday, in every way.

i heart thedisco.tumblr.com

2009-08-26T21:46:00.003+08:00

the tag for this was why so pretty. i think it should be changed to WHY SO AMAZING.

teehee and hands :D

2009-08-26T20:12:00.002+08:00

sorry i just couldn't resist :D i heart mr. urie :D

teehee.

2009-08-26T20:08:00.003+08:00

i guess i'm happy too.

i hope you're happier now than ever (and i hope she helps you with that) :D cos you deserve that.

Art Elective FTFW :D i love my sanctuary. and i will bug darrelle more (: LOL.

will you.

2009-08-25T22:15:00.001+08:00

say you'll mean it?

choir is exhausting but i'm getting to love it again :D

this is weird.

2009-08-25T21:41:00.003+08:00

i have a lost face because i really don't know what to do about things!
i'm just so done with this.
i don't speak when there's nothing to be said.
and it sort of feels good. the silence is heartwarming somehow.

finding out who i really am.

new perspective!

2009-08-25T21:13:00.001+08:00

http://thedisco.tumblr.com/ panic always makes me smile :D btw brendon is so cute when he get mobbed. lol.

an unearthly sense of calm.
i should wait for the right time, but what if it never comes.

whispers hello.

2009-08-25T21:05:00.002+08:00

and she reminded me that i regretted it. it wasn't the best way to deal with things :/

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESTHER :D

what can i do.

2009-08-24T17:29:00.002+08:00

i wanna live a life from a new perspective.

i wrote you guys a poem! (it's emo as heck. lol. but i vent like this :D)

piercing eyes
so wide and glossed
focused intently
feelings of awkwardness and the pretence of non-chalance
i smile back
things i can't control
are things that i can't fix
so i let them go

that's how i'm feeling right now (: she asked me if i wanted this, i swear i do. it's just that it's past the point that you'll hear me out. i swear there has to be an easier way.

in too deep.

2009-08-24T17:17:00.002+08:00

i love my juniors! :D

you're not a judge, but yet, you judge me.

can you hear me say?

2009-08-24T17:15:00.003+08:00

keep 'em close to your heart but never let them into your heart.

i get it! :D -eureka moment- and that's exactly what i'm gonna do. i have the right. thank you to the awesomeness of time. -grins-

i need a hug.

decode.

2009-08-23T21:28:00.001+08:00

and then i realise we're all in the same boat here.

feel better cousy! :D

nice to meet you, sir.

2009-08-23T21:22:00.000+08:00

ignorance is about to be my new best friend.

CHEM SPA ARGH D:

three cheers for five years.

2009-08-22T23:26:00.001+08:00

and if i died right now, you'd never be same.
or would you?

exhausting myself over foolish things again. I HEART THREE CHEERS FOR FIVE YEARS BY MAYDAY PARADE. acoustic and unplugged is love :D

miserable at best.

2009-08-22T22:40:00.000+08:00

i can live without you.
but i don't want to.

deep down in your eyes.

2009-08-22T18:46:00.002+08:00

i like this version better than the original. heaven can wait by we the kings. cut off at the back but it's awesome :D enjoy :D